December in many ways represents reconciliation. It’s the end of the year and the perfect opportunity to recap, reflect and prepare for the proverbial turning of the page. I’ve spent some time over the past year diving into personal moments of significance here with The Daily Feels. That time I’ve spent pulling apart some of the thoughts within my beautiful mind, serve as great reminders of the cathartic nature of writing when I allow myself the grace and space to release my self-contained dialogue. In my personal #YearOfTruth, I’m acknowledging where I’ve been and where I am heading for my last blog with The Daily Feels.

I’ve learned over this last year that while we’ve all navigated a global pandemic together, the how of it all, remains a unique experience to the individual. I was gently guided, or perhaps I unintentionally chose, to move closer to people, places and things that provided a sense of peace. The opportunity to be introspective about how I represent as a Black Butterfly in my personal and professional spaces has provided me a platform to authentically explore. The most recent racial reckoning we endured as a nation did place me in a space where I wanted to be edified in my Blackness and be surrounded by stories of Black love, Black revolution, Black family, Black resilience, Black excellence. Ironically, it propelled me to look around my own village to connect to those people and their stories.

This season was also marred with transition – of relationships, mindsets and emotions. Confronting the darkest parts within these areas really liberated me to acknowledge that some of these spaces require more consistent light from me. It gave me permission to acknowledge that my journey remains one where I must honor not only where I’ve come from, but where I am right now in this very moment. Now I am exploring what I need to reintegrate back into the world and chart the course for my vision and next set of accomplishments. I’ve been uncomfortable here – very uncomfortable sitting in this space that quite honestly.  Currently, I’m at the precipice of moving beyond mere existence into something greater and a deeper call toward my purpose.

For context, I spent a majority of my 20s in search of my purpose. I aligned it with my vocation – what I was being called to do professionally. As I freed myself to explore everything that motivated me, I eventually became less restrictive around my own perimeters that my purpose is intrinsically tied to one thing. Now in my 40s, my purpose evolution incorporates my whole self in what drives and motivates me for a full life. Similar to my 20s, it isn’t just one thing. The difference now is that I am setting an intention that remains closely aligned to my value of servant leadership – to pay it forward and utilize all my gifts – including this one, the gift of writing.

In my last post (Art Imitating Life), I eluded to navigating closer to leaning in and unlocking the book that has been on my heart.  Thanks to the consistent discipline I’ve developed with writing again here, the past few weeks have been marred with signs that I’m going in the right direction in exploring my capacity and creating boundaries.  This extends far beyond the discipline of writing but in my life and relationships.  The why behind power of no and boundary setting has taken greater meaning. The realization in telling the truth shows up in a myriad of ways just by giving myself permission. To give myself the mental space and pause when I feel overwhelmed to acknowledge when I am at capacity. To articulate what I need versus navigating through what comes my way and dealing with it. There is also an acknowledgment of the curve balls I cannot control. And because my foundation relationship is anchored in God, I am often gently reminded who is in control. There is power also in surrendering and getting clear about what supports me in maintaining my peace. And as I continue to explore that pathway, I want to take a step closer to unpacking it in a new way. 

As my #YearOfTruth is not literally based around a calendar year but my birthday year, being intentional around what I am experiencing in my newest season remains a constant discovery.  And now as I prepare to take the exploration of blogging and turn it inward to further dive into my own awakening, there’s something liberating about it.  While I will miss this community of wordsmiths and readers, as I continue to support, I anticipate I will continue to be inspired from a new position on the team.  It is my hope that when my byline emerges again, I will be able to share the full evolution of the Black Butterfly just as my original The Daily Feels bio notes, “through her writing and in her relationships, KK continues to unpack and explore life transformations the only way she knows how – with unconditional love, raw honesty and a touch of humor.” 

KK is an energetic storyteller, creative marketer and servant leader with a kaleidoscope of professional pathways in music, print publishing and television.  Currently, KK is a marketing executive at a major media company. Faith and family anchor KK’s ambitions, and she believes Luke 12:48 hold true, “from everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.”  KK leverages her gifts, talents and abilities in support of advancing others, particularly in motivating her 9 year old son CMK.  

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